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To all of my dear, dear friends at caedes: I cannot begin to tell you how much the outpouring of support I recieved after posting Hope meant to me. Many of you also sent PM's. A few appeared to have the wrong impression, that I would not be around at all. As you can see, I will be, but not as often, particularily for those of you that are used to seeing me in the offtopic threads constantly. To alleviate a few concerns people brought up this is not a medical issue. This post today is once again very symbolic for me. The trees on the left are sharp and clear, but barren and desolate, much as my immediate future is to me. The trees to the right, as well as the water, further in the distance are somewhat blurry and out of focus, as is my vision of my future at the moment. The skies are grey, ominous, and without color, matching my overall mood at the moment. When I left the house this morning the grey clouds were all I could see. In any direction. Not a bit of light or color anywhere. Until I approached the spot where Hope was taken yesterday. The skies, at the single point where I captured this picture opened to reveal the thin sliver of light you see at the horizon. It was the only light from the sky to be seen in any direction. That light my friends, is each of you, as well as some very, very dear friends in my personal life, your generosity, your caring, and your prayers revealed to me just as I approached the same spot where I snapped the original. I will perservere, I will carry on, tommorrow will indeed come, and I will become a stronger person for it - but you will never know how much your kindness has helped and is helping. Thank you all for being my rays of hope on a cloudy, stormy day...